reflecting on the moments...

hey mama haaaaaay!!! who’s awake right now!? huh? huh?

let me ask; do you ever feel like you could literally come in like a wrecking ball (no pun intended Miley) and hit the bed like a bull dozer out of pure exhaustion from the longest day… week…month, YEAR of your life—that moment… you know ‘that’ one where it all seems to have finally fizzled down to normal again, you can EXHALE. even better, breathe in easy and SLEEP without anything weighing on your mind. ahhhhhhhhhh (heavens open up) precious underrated sleeeeep….

oh but wait. not if you’re me. nope. naturally in just two seconds of this realization you start giving yourself “options” instead as you scan your mental checklist one more time. yes, unfortunately and regrettably to admit—this is me. being the “always find something else to do besides sleep” type of over-achiever i must clearly be in order to ‘feel’ normal. yes, my girls are tuckered away and while my head should also be hitting the pillow, here i sit instead blogging away at 10:30 pm, trying to cut myself some slack for the amount of ‘wrecking ball’ i’ll be in the morning.

but i’m also a silver lining kind of girl and knowing that writing and talking to you is simply part of my….therapy i suppose you could say---always seems to help justify my own self-induced sleep deprivation.

…and now that that’s out of the way, can i ask for a pat on the back please? thank you.

and i’d also like to say thank you to all the mommas who keep up with me on here! you should know that every time i sit down to write i am thinking of you—wondering if you’re doing the same thing in your busy mommy-brain as i am. i always hope that with these words you find some sort of momentary release of your own ‘crazy’ as i take you into our world.

and gawd isn’t this thing called “motherhood” so wild at times!?  this week has been NUTS. totally friggin’ peanuts! my life (in general) is that way i suppose and always has been by no one’s doing but my own of course. i am a ridiculously— “utilize every second possible” Type ‘A’—and there are times i can actually say, it’s the “catch22” life and death of me. miraculously i can love it and despise it all at the same time. but my inner-being-ness is also a catch 22 because as much of a social butterfly as i am, people who didn’t know me well might suspect that i’d have a hard time being alone for too long. and that’s just not the case. 

i was halfway complaining to hub the other night about April and May being the two busiest months of the year with the thousand and one birthdays (between friends and family) including my own, add to that baby showers and Mother’s Day celebrations. of course he reminded me that i am just as busy around the holidays and that it is "also" by my ‘own choosing’. what a punk.

but i don’t think i know a single mom who isn’t busy around that time. do you!? and surely i can’t help having so many people in my life who i absolutely love and adore…nor would i trade the chaos of their special occasions and celebrations for anything else this time of year. it’s always worth it!

nonetheless, it’s still nice to finally breathe …i can finally sit down and spend time reflecting. and that feels sooo good. and of course  i’d be lying if i said i wasn’t counting down the days at this point until we are on that plane on Sunday at the crack of dawn. yes, i cannot wait to get away with my lover to Palm Beach for the yearly president’s retreat he's qualified for every year for the last six years. he’s such a rock star and i’m so proud of all his hard work. and this year, yes…let’s talk about this year where we will not only be kid-free but pregnant-free too, which means we are in for one damn good time together!

as much as we love our little nuggets and will miss the “yucky cookies” out of them (as Hannah calls her sister’s diaper-presents) we are so beyond ready for some quality time alone. and i realize what a gift these trips really are at this specific time of the year simply because our time together runs so slim as the hub gets the back burner to the many other loved ones in my life. and so, we’ve got the Mimi and Granddad driving in from Oregon and in T-minus five days we are outta here baby!!!!

but since this post is about ‘reflecting’…. i’ll start with the two birthday projects for my best friend—a scrapbook and a poem that i have every intention on publishing as a children’s book, add to that an “old Hollywood glam” birthday bash i planned for weeks for the two of us (mainly for her).

she is without a doubt one of the people in my life who i cannot imagine a life without. God definitely made us friends in ‘this’ particular lifetime because he knew our parents couldn’t handle us as sisters. but 'blood-shblood', the girl IS my sister, my heart, and my soul. the better, more wild side of me that is forced to remember that life is too short to not let your hair down and get a little sexy, crazy every now and then. and yes, her scrapbook was titled “The Timelessly Sexy One”…that’s our Brookie who we love so dearly.

a solid friendship for past a decade now and we’ve have had one ‘fight’ (if you could even call it that) after a brutal ride home from another Vegas trip, i dunno…like seven years ago?? i know that this type of friendship is not only a rare find but a true eternal blessing and our birthdays are just five days apart so (since we’re so awesome) we choose to make it easier on everyone by throwing ourselves joint parties every year…almost every year.

and of course, when it came time in the night to give her her gifts, i was beyond anxious to see the look on her face as she read the poem and flipped through the scrapbook with letters from each of the girls in our ‘kitten clan’ and photos that go back in time by ten plus years. and i have to say that in that very moment all the hard work in planning and prepping the house for a party and the two weeks i spent working on those labors of love—was all SO worth it. because she is. she is worth so much more than i did or ever could do. that’s what an amazing, loyal, honest friend she has never once failed to be to me…to all of us. add “incredible auntie” to that list. Hannah is always asking for “auntie B, auntie B”.  

she’s the one who is there in the blink of an eye to get on her hands and knees and help look for the diamond that fell out of her best friend’s setting as her best friend panicks over what to tell her husband. we may not have found it but she was my diamond that day…she’s the one who is there for all the ones she loves even when it is least convenient. she’s the one you know you can count on. she’s loyal and honest with everyone. her heart truly is her greatest masterpiece and i can’t even stand how much i love and adore her.

and let's be honest, i’m gonna go ahead and pat myself on the back here and say that i know how to throw a damn good party! SO. MUCH. FUN. dressing up and feeling sexy and glamorous for a night on the ‘red carpet’….the only downside is that now i have no idea how i could possibly top this one next year!

and along with the birthdays also came baby showers, a princess party, and a few blogs here and there…one of which i collaborated with a friend on a topic we are extremely passionate about and particularly over the moon in ‘reflection’ since Living Whole with their 15,000 followers (among a few others) have shared it on Facebook and its received hundreds of ‘likes’, ‘comments’, and more ‘shares’ ….i truly count it as a blessing from God in being diligent to what has been placed on my heart to share with all those willing to listen with regard to the SB277 bill on mandated vaccinations for public and private school entry.

 “the last hope of human liberty rests on us” ~ Thomas Jefferson.

there was point in time where i had succumb to the pressure of backing down, telling myself it was “too sensitive” of a subject--until i realized that there was no shame in doing what i was doing and that progress in this world has not been made by people who are too afraid to speak up. the truth can hurt sometimes, but it doesn't mean we stay quiet. enough said on that topic.

of course, there were also all the simple yet beautiful highlights these last couple weeks with my two little peanuts on top of balancing all of thee above alongside the usual errands and mommy/wifey duties. but i can honestly say that on my most difficult day playing mommy, i am still the happiest woman alive and i can only thank God for that. as mommas we are naturally wired to be obsessed with our children, but i sometimes wonder if my obsession is healthy or not...i keep telling myself it is.

and can we all just set our judgements aside for a moment to talk about the “mommy oopsies”.  i laid on my cousins couch one day this week as we were laughing away at all those ‘oopsies’ (like)— accidentally hitting our babies head on the car seat and/or ceiling of the car…. or a door frame for the umteenth time (to name but just a couple) ….yes those “oopsie, SORRY baby!!!” moments we couldn’t help but crack up over.  horrible! just horrible…. “we’re such bad moms!” 

and since i’m going totally transparent here, let me just tell you that one of my most  traumatizing and permanently scarring “oopsie” moments happened when Hannah was about 3 and half months old. we were sitting outside at church one morning in the tent as the pastor had just come on the screen to start the sermon. dead quiet. Hannah started fussing so (mindlessly) i picked her car seat up off the ground and placed it on the chair next to me to calm her down. and she did…until five minutes later when  her car seat flipped over onto the ground which set her off WHALING…oh and then realized it was probably not the most brilliant idea to put her on a folding chair.  let me just say---what. a. scene.

i had literally jumped up startled, screaming “oh my God, oh my God!!!” over and over again, trying to flip the car seat around as it gets stuck on my scarf and she starts screaming even louder. thankfully, between hub and i we finally managed only after wrestling the scarf off my neck. and needless to say THANK GOD she was strapped in and the handle was locked in place so her face didn’t even touch the ground.

 as i was rocking her and calming her down, trying to also breathe and calm myself down---and stop the tears from flowing down my cheeks, i was so thankful for the sweet woman who so lovingly walked over to rub my arm and say “sweetie, i dropped my babies so many times and they all turned out ok—we’ve all been there.” and as we were leaving, hub so sweetly reminds me: “can you imagine how my mom must have felt to walk around with her baby in an arm cast because she wasn’t looking when i fell off the changing table?” (as sad as that is) he had me in tears i was laughing so hard.

gawd i sure hope i don’t have any cps workers reading this blog!

and yes, the ‘oopsies’ were no exception this week with Adelynn. my poor baby who fell off the couch once earlier in the week and then tonight toppled forward in the bathtub (thankfully before i filled it with bathwater) which landed a nice little red mark across her cheek bone. where was i you’re wondering? on both occasions  i had literally stepped away for one second to grab towels/ hannah’s bowl of strawberries on the counter. but that’s all it takes. one awful second…followed by a lot of mommy guilt before we are all smiles again and moving on with the day.

and thankfully she’s such a spirited and happy little baby. i think she still loves me. the best part was watching her (red faced and all) after the bath—staring at her reflection offering up a tea cup to the 'baby' staring back at her. she is thee cutest and happiest doll! truly melts my heart just staring at her as she lights up with joy. 

not to mention our moments with Hannah have been increasingly entertaining as every moment she seems to develop more and more into this little self-assured go-getter, telling it “like it is”. she is two…yes TWO and the girl wants to either live exclusively in her “Minnie” pajamas otherwise change her outfit THREE times a day. and hub tells me a few days ago that he caught her glancing at her backside in the mirror…“WHAaaaaaaT!? oh Lord help me!!!”….she’s totally mimicking me….ok hub—and you too, you know it! and now here i am contemplating removing every mirror in the house before it turns into the 'house of vain' ok, kidding….sorta.

seriously though, i simply cannot believe that she is only two years old and already cares SO much about what she wears and how she looks. she’s definitely not getting the “change three times” thing from me….although i’m told that as a child i was also a ‘little’ obsessive compulsive when i got something in my head. which brings me to perhaps my all-time favorite moment late last week when Adelynn was down for her morning nap and Hannah and i were playing in the backyard. WOW was it a HOT one!

once we came inside after a couple hours,  i took the pony tail out of hannah’s sweaty, sunscreen tainted WILD hair (the photo below doesn't do justice) and i start busting out in uncontrollable laughter saying “baby, you’re SO cute” and she totally WAS! but of course it took her all of two seconds to look in the mirror as she turns to me TOTALLY MORTIFIED; breaking out in tears:  “NO MOMMY!!! NOT cute” “NOT cute mommy”  “FITZ it!!!” “FITZ it"

oh man i’m so bad…i truly cannot stop laughing at this point as i whip out my camera to capture the frazzled hair (that i had already 'sorta' tamed) and she throws up her hand “NO PIT-URE Mommy!!!!” she’s TWO and such a character already…


oh, my poor child do have to bear with ‘me’ as a mother.

of course i had no intention of traumatizing her forever and went and got the brush to “fitz it” for her. as i continued to smile and chuckle on the inside, she stared at herself in the mirror until her hair was perfect and then says to me: “okay mommy-- pit-ure” before we were off to the art room for some finger-painting. i can’t even handle it. she’s so funny.

and our morning would not have been complete without a trip to Starbucks today and Hannah’s first mani-pedi ever. and just before hanging by the fountain and feeding the birds at Starbucks, i took her to Rite Aid to pick out her nail polish for “after nap” ---"dis one puh-pull annnnnnnnd DIS one spaw-kles” she says as she instantly grabs the two she already knows she wants. no surprises there.  

as we raised our usual  “cheers darling” to our hot-coco and decaf cinnamon dolche latte i couldn’t help but stare at her ...as she gets older and so much more assertive, i am always wanting to jump into her little head and hang there for a while. to see the world as she sees it…same goes for Adelynn. most days i am home with them i am spending more than half the time just marveling. they captivate my world. they're my 'little Minis' and best buds.

writing about these beautiful, sweet moments with them somehow always leaves me missing them to the point where i can’t even stand to be away from them for one more second...and then i wonder how it was that just moments ago i was counting down the days to get away from them…oh the endless love. they are my world and i want to capture every last fleeting moment and stick them in a time capsule where i can relive them whenever i want to. they’re just little babes and yet still growing up way too fast! i can’t take it!

on that note, i think i’ll just leave you with a few photo highlights as i go sneak in their room and watch them sleep for a few….  then oh-i-dunno, i suppose i should get some sleep too. lord knows i need it!

a day at home with us...

ever wonder what other stay at home mamas are up to on a regular basis? i sure do, so tonight i’m gonna bring you into a day in our world~now that my babes are tucked away and off in ‘Unicorns & RainbowLand’

typically on a Monday, my sweet little banana would be at daycare while i’d be running around most of the day and tackling the usual—groceries, Home Goods, laundry and cleaning, one-on-one time with the baby, a little down time to read, nap, or write (etc.) but today--my sweet little, snot faced, itchy eyed nugget was home sick…on the road to recovery and doing much better. nonetheless, not her usual energetic self.

both girls got their checkups with our family doctor a few days ago when it started with the runny nose and mild fever turn cough. of course i was hoping and praying it wasn’t anything like strep or croup; thank God it wasn’t... needless to say we’ve just been on quarantine at home until all are healthy again, and i should fill you in here that we've also been on a fairly strict “Monday thru Friday- NO media” rule for two and a half months now with Hannah.

in fact, coming back to Facebook  (at this point in time) is also coming with strict boundaries i must place on myself, otherwise…well do i even need to say? FB is such a twisted love affair for me which is why every now and then, i find myself itching to unplug before i turn  into an obsessive compulsive media whore…not really a whore…but good, Lord does it make me feel like one at times! plain and simply—it’s an addiction…if i let it be...so why might that be?

well, allow me to take you back to the ‘O-M-G’ moment with this decision that hit me like a ton of bricks…

it was 3 am in the middle of the night as we were startled awake to Hannah SCREAMING bloody murder for her “i-PAaaaaaaaaD!!!!!!” ---but, before you start judging, let me set the record straight to say that we never 'thought' we were very liberal with her iPad time in the first place…buuuuut …according to an article my mother in law read, children have twice the levels of dopamine receptors (i.e. pleasure) from watching media than we do and i guess at this point that hadn’t come as much of a surprise.

anyhow, in that moment as my heart sank into my chest realizing she was ‘temper-tantrum-dreaming’ on a scale that made even my jaw drop, i couldn’t help but reflect on my own ‘need’ for media…and that was all it took…one moment.  

after caressing her back to sleep with a book and a back rub, i got back in bed and was wide awake. and like clockwork, not even a few minutes into laying there and somehow mindlessly about to reach for my iPhone to get on Facebook—as if having momentary amnesia to what i had literally just decided—when a voice out of nowhere dropped into my head—“WHAT ARE YOU DOING?”


and then it dawned on me that my body was just doing what it does, what i had trained it to do. reaching for my phone to tap that blue icon with the white 'f'' on it had become as natural as breathing.

of course, i put my phone back down and picked up the book i had gotten half way through ‘A Little Bit of Buddha’ and ended up doing mantras in my head until falling asleep again.


the next morning (a Saturday) i sat up in bed (hub was already awake) and in a blank daze, still somewhat in  shock from Hannah’s outburst, i looked him in the eyes and said: “that’s it. no more media during the week”. he agreed.

well, initially at least—as in the first couple days. ...just a couple days into the week and his tune changed just as soon as he’d get home from work and Hannah was all over him with her typical whiny ways. the first thing out of his mouth: “you want your iPad” or “you wanna watch Caillou?”  as i’d turn to him with ‘the look’….you know, that one. 

 “oh come on! let the poor kid watch a little TV” …. “or you can, ummmidunno, maybe play with the “poor” kid you haven’t seen all day?”….and that’s when another thing dawned on me—my husband (though not with FB) was just as addicted to his own media as the rest of us.


within the rest of that first initial week implementing the rule with my iron foot, i realized that Hannah wasn’t even asking for her iPad or Caillou anymore…and yet there were still at least two more evenings that week when i had to ‘scold’ David—lovingly of course—“don’t ask her if she wants it”


so what is it about these realizations that come in life…these moments of clarity where you feel so certain about the next move you need to make; a move that is right for you and for your family, even if it’s not for others? those moments where we can commit to something with all fierceness and then just as easily blink and fall back into the same old habitual ways?


for me, Facebook was turning into a love-hate, rollercoaster, relationship—like a Catch22. as much as i loved scrolling through my newsfeed to the singing dogs and cats on potties, and of course—all of my friends adorable children, which is the  true 'L-o-v-e’ part, it was, on a regular-basis (mindlessly) consuming so much of my energy. mindlessly because that’s exactly what it was…an app on my phone that i’d jump on EVERY time i’d be just a little bored, or just a little curious as to what the rest of the world was up to.

of course having two young ones never permitted me to stay on for long periods of time in any “one-serving” of it, but even jumping on throughout the day (staring at my phone) did not get past my bright little toddler. how could i be totally present with her if i was so focused on everyone else? it was me…it was totally me. i was the problem. not her.

so i suppose it should’ve come as no surprise to listen to hub’s defense this past Thursday: “i read an article that said when your kids are sick, let them watch TV to get them to rest” –to which i only raised an eyebrow slightly before caving in deciding that some battles aren’t worth fighting. and like i really wanna be the ‘bad guy’  Mr. Scrooge-- when my babies are sick.


sooooo little miss got a few ‘extra’ doses of media Thursday on through the weekend…but by Sunday i had the moment of clarity again…how EASY it is to fall back into the same pattern.  “but not today” i decided this morning.  we were back on the wagon, and you know what? we are all better today for it!


i realize that when we spend true quality time together without mindless distractions—even if it is a long day on ‘quarantine at home’, i am most satisfied and fulfilled as mother when i am present in every moment with them, challenging as it may be at times. it is what gives my ‘job’ the type of purpose it does and my heart the truest satisfaction. God gave them to me to enjoy them, even through whining, the snott, the tears and tantrums. to love them with all my heart and to give them the priority they deserve on my list always.


and who am i kidding? with two kids, a move, and a remodel over the last couple months, who has time for Facebook? but things are finally feeling normal again, and it couldn’t feel any fuzzier inside than it does right now.


so about that ‘day in our world’ …if you didn’t know already, we are HUGE fans of art and nature so today was about combining the two. the morning started with some soup followed by play in the backyard, then a hunt for the perfect pieces of nature for our “earth masquerade mask”.


one thing i love about the new house is having a room devoted to music and art, add to that dance and yoga, just as soon as the flooring goes in— and when it comes to getting messy, Hannah has two obsessions: finger paint & glue. but hey, don’t all toddlers? and we couldn’t have been happier with the turnout of our project! not to mention that if we’re ever in the jungle needing a good camouflage, we’ll be prepared!


after lunch, naps were duly needed and i was counting all my lucky stars that both girls went down at the same time, for the same amount of time as if the heavens opened up on me and said “i got-chya’” …this NEVER HAPPENS! and so i had two options: ‘take a nap’ or ‘workout’ ….i know, i know what you’re thinking “NAP!!” ….i did too until i remembered i’ll be in a bikini in Palm Beach in just a few weeks and back to those “moments of clarity and commitment” i had sworn that i would finally discipline myself again into getting in shape “as soon as we move and are settled in” …and now that we are, i realize i have no more excuses.


but HOLYCOW does it feel painfully good to have finally jumpstarted a workout (dvd) once again after close to a year of hiatus....every muscle is so sore and i’m loving it!


then once the girls were up we spent some time playing “monkeys on momma’s bed” and then back to the backyard to look for more bugs once that game got old. by 4pm Adelynn was way past due for another nap so just as soon as she was down, i got to give my little banana some one-on-one love as we played quietly in her room where i couldn’t help but just stare at her imagining all the things going on her little head.


then out of nowhere “mommy, cuzzi…cuzzi in mommy’s tub” as i commended her on the “fabulous idea”. i’ve taken baths with her since she was a baby. i remember some of my favorite moments were nursing her in the tub. that skin to skin that’s like euphoria as a new mom. jets were on and we were so busy enjoying the bubbles that we didn’t even notice that daddy was home from work until he came walking in on us, laughing at the scene…the usual dinner/bedtime routine followed…


annnnnd here i sit, capping off the day with a blog.


there were tears and typical baby and toddler tantrums today but all in all, the perfect day. we were all in it together. through the range of emotions we scale on a daily basis, i love the feeling that comes with knowing i was not only there physically to handle them, but mentally ‘present’ in them. unmoved, unwavering in my own patience today (by God’s Grace) another day down…and the rest of our lives to go, building memories in our new home---simply blessed.

aliens, HYBRIDS, reincarnation, CHANNELERS, the "Rapture"...

aliens, HYBRIDS, reincarnation, CHANNELERS, the "RAPTURE"...

come. again. please?

yes, i know. quite the headline to a blog post right? but how else was i supposed to get your attention?

and before i even begin to break this headline down, i'll start by saying that by the time you're done reading this and all the links provided--prepare to bookmark and take a few days with it--you will likely find yourself either:

a.) laughing and calling me a quack

-even i can appreciate enlightening someone's day with humor at my own expense.


b.) agreeing with what is said as it will seem like common sense after all the evidence supported.

-we share a kindred Awakening-

OR

c.) speechless and quite frankly, a little uncomfortable. shaken up inside. maybe wishing you hadn't read, seen the videos, or even had to think about the 'possible' truth to it.

maybe b & c?

-it's only a natural response and one i too had to overcome in order to discard unnecessary fear in order to even contemplate those Spiritual truths (outside those i grew up on in the church) with the freedom to create the space for new Awareness & Truth to resonate and guide me into an ever-evolving, transformed BE-ing

i had to remember that beautiful verse in the Bible. Romans 12:2 "be 'TRANS-formed by the RE-NEW-ing of the mind"

trans1
tranz,trans/
adjective CHEMISTRY

"denoting or relating to a molecular structure in which two particular atoms or groups lie on opposite sides of a given plane in the molecule, in particular denoting an isomer in which substituents at opposite ends of a carbon–carbon double bond are also on opposite sides of the bond"

ah ha! the process of 'trans'-form-a-tion'

"a thorough or dramatic change in form or appearance."

meeting the 'other side' of our polarity.

so what's all this nonsense about? well, for starters (and because i don't believe in coincidence) the fact that you've found yourself reading these words, i believe, has as much to do with Divine Orchestration as the 'urge' that led me to write it in the first place.


although many of us have not stopped to acknowledge it, we are nonetheless living in the 'Golden Age of Enlightenment' spoken of for thousands of years now since the most ancient of days. the 'Age of the Brain'. the 'Great Awakening' the 'Age of Aquarius' etc.


although the headline to this blog may have thrown you for a loop, the main take away from this message will be just that. namely, our need to tune ourselves INWARD and INTO this ultimate Knowledge of our existence.


perhaps the best way to help describe what this Awakening to our True Reality/Existence looks like, i should direct you to the best 25 minutes of your life right here. perhaps this video is just what it will take to set the foundation for the rest of the blog.


as i've mentioned before with the 11:11 phenomenon taking place around the world (now) more than ever before, it is simply a response to this heightened Spiritual Awareness. a near and dear best friend of mine even texted me recently about it. after the urge to start praying for more Spiritual Awareness "felt" in her soul as she said, not just 'believed', she then started noticing 11:11 all the time.


many people don't even realize the Spiritual significance of it, as it just seems like a 'lucky' sort of 'weird' coincidence. but for many years now gifted seers, clairvoyants, and channelers have spoken of it as "the gateway" when the two realms of 'physical' and 'Spiritual' are wide open and our guides/angels/Highest Self-Consciousness are trying to communicate with us any way that they can by gently whispering in our ear to notice something--


without entirely disrupting or imposing on our God-given 'free will' that is. they want to guide us into meeting our Highest Self. that is the way they help us and protect us.


and whenever we call out in Faith, (especially) on the Name of Jesus (repetitive 3s) we are getting that same guidance. 4 is the numbers of angels. 11 is a Master Spiritual number and the most intuitive of numbers. 22 and 33 are also Master Numbers. EVERY number attached to every letter is meaningful to our lives! 


we all have a 'name path' and a 'life path' according to our birthday/time of birth and full maiden names. we each have a unique quality and root number to our names giving us insight into our purpose. numerology and astrology go hand in hand to tell us so much about ourselves and to help guide us.


wait a minute, someone in the church told you that it was all of the Devil?


have you ever wondered then why numbers and patterns of numbers, OR even the location of the star when Christ was born etc. is even IN the Bible with so much Spiritual Significance? if we were not to understand these studies, how do we understand the relevance of their usage throughout? how do we gain Spiritual insight if we know nothing of a number's Spiritual Identity?


moving along, although there is very much an 11:11 phenomenon taking place, it is not just with 11:11. our guides speak to us in all repetitive numbers and various patterns of numbers (double, triple, quadruple) even signs, movies, songs etc.


and the message in the numbers can be any number of things be it answer to Prayer (that we are acknowledging their Guidance) to trying to get us to tune into our thoughts at that very moment we experience it. what kind of 'reality' are we creating for ourselves in that very moment? what are our thoughts creating within us? are they constructive? are we operating in Love?


they also speak to us in personal revelation, helping us understand Biblical Prophesy, which (again) is kind of important...


sometimes our angels and guides are just telling us "well done" and encouraging us to keep up the 'good Spiritual Soul Growth'.


when we begin to recognize that it is happening, we must see it for what it is. we ARE growing more Aware, raising our own frequency/vibration-in the process and transforming all the more rapidly into our True Self. the message is that we OUGHT to understand the Spiritual Significance in every aspect of our lives, through our own experiences AND those of others BECAUSE we are all connected. and to PRAY for those things we are in need of to accomplish those Spiritual lessons.


i've briefly written about my own experience with the synchronicity of 11:11 and it has been even more prominent in my day-to-day than EVER before. double and triple digits that is. i'll look at the clock and it never fails.. 11, 22, 33, 44, 55s ....11:11, 1:11, 3:33, 4:44, 5:55 etc.


i hop on FB and as i'm 'liking' posts i'm the 'like' that takes it from the 10th-11th or 11th to the 12th, or the 21st to the 22nd or 44 and 55 so that i'm always seeing those numbers. 44 in my call log. 333 on my camera roll. 3:33 on the clock when i know prayers are being answered for us as we travel because i felt them and then was reminded through the 3:33 that Jesus was with me.


my sister text messages me the 11th of 11 photos in our text history. 2222 on buildings that i just so happen to notice in passing as we're driving. 444-4444 on a taxi cab in passing. and again on the back of a huge bus in front of me during a moment of crisis on the road. 22%, 33% and 44% on my battery life. double digits on license plates and road signs jumping out at me (when i'm definitely NOT even looking for them).


on 1/11 right at 1:11 i just so happen to glance down at my phone (it had been at least an hour since i had last checked the time). and of course! so i snap a picture and share it with fb, log off, get back on just in time to see it's received '11' likes. 

not to mention the week before we were in Oregon i had even alluded to a pattern happening that night at my girls party every time it happened while i was there. 6:16, 7:17, 8:18, 9:19, 10:10, 11:11 on the clock (the only times in the night when i looked). one of my best friends even joked, "maybe you just look at the clock a lot."


and to be fair, maybe i do but that still doesn't explain why it could be (and usually is) at least an hour to three hours in between looking at any clock and i just so 'happen' to get the 'pattern' or the double or triple numbers when i do.


so what does that mean? did you watch the video above? ;-)


the sense that our souls or Highest Consciousness' are multidimensional. though this is difficult to grasp in our physical 3D world of matter and limited understanding to our Truest Nature, we are on the path of meeting and becoming our True Selves. the path of outgrowing the 'ego'. only then will we be living in the True Reality. the same True Reality that Jesus came and taught, though many whom he spoke to could not understand the Spiritual Significance of His Words.


is it any wonder why hundreds of thousands of individuals who have had Near Death (and Death) experiences, only to return to tell about them as this entirely different "Real" Reality where 'time' does not exist and the knowledge of the Self as a created being of God, in God, one with God, and one with everything that God is and created has happened to hundreds of thousands of individuals around the world?


scientists and psychologists are now studying NDE experiences as a global phenomenon, much like the 11:11 phenomenon. and this same realization of 'oneness' that is experienced by the NDE's is that same Spiritual Oneness that Jesus Himself taught us to strive for because it's what we ARE in our truest Nature or 'form'. yet so many of our churches condemn this as being "pantheistic" and false teaching.


some of these NDE experiencers were even able to describe what channelers and seers have described all along (again) for THOUSANDS of years now with the 'Akashic Records' (God and our souls' "memory book" or "Book of Life" as the Bible speaks of) where every thought, intention, action, and word spoken since our first venture--in whatever dimension we chose--once given our ability to choose is then recorded. EVERY moment of our Soul's history and creativity IS RECORDED.


it is in their 'Life Review' where they are able to see ALL these things play out like a movie. where nothing goes unnoticed. every life lived before, in many different dimensions of the Universe including those 'previous' earth incarnations are all like one collective "Lifetime Movie" featuring themselves as the Starring Performer. Thomas Sawyer's story  is but one of thousands. 


they are even able to see Earth or "Mother Nature" as ONE, LIVING, BREATHING SENTIENT Organism where everything about Her is glorious and ALIVE possessing feeling and a range of energies with all levels of vibration. she moves and breathes and serves us in all her Glory. check out this NASA video data if you're struggling to envision what she looks like. 


even many Christians who (prior to their near death experience) did not believe in reincarnation had been shown their previous lives and were able to look 'down' so to speak as though it were all connected into one ongoing lifetime and ongoing Spiritual transformation. time does not exist. time is really just another constructed illusion that we are living with. on the 'other side' our past, present, and future lives are like puzzle pieces that can be put together perfectly to see the big picture of our transformation in its wholeness. God sees us in our 'perfection' and the beauty of our entirety; the uniqueness we each possess through our own self-created aspects of expression.  


and although we are incarnate numerous times, we don't always choose to have the same expression or personality...it's quite literally a merciful clean slate in which we have all the creative juices to utilize all the gifts and talents we've stored up in our previous lives while creating new aspects of ourselves and doing NEW things...



and when it comes to this "new"-age belief as so many of us have been told by our churches, we've been led to believe that we are being 'deceived' if we engage such belief. but reincarnation is hardly a 'new' belief at all, instead a VERY ancient one.


for power and political reasons that served the interest of the Church it had been dubbed as "heretical teaching" and the Roman Catholic Church literally crucified those who were caught teaching it and speaking of it. it THREATENED the power of man (UNDER) the influence of DARKNESS. it was almost all but destroyed and burned; almost all but removed.


yet there was still a reason even this had to happen. it's all in the blueprint of The Bible. our 'own' Blueprint to life as. hu-mans ('god-men').


the founding fathers of Christianity (i.e. Origin himself for example) taught the pre-existence of the soul and our truest nature as souls/consciousness in physical bodies made up of physical matter.


reincarnation is still taught by Orthodox Jews today. and whether we choose to believe it's true or not, makes no difference. it is part of the (upper case) 'R'eality that we are limited to remembering until the veil is removed. it is being 'born again' in the literal sense of the word so that we may learn those lessons of life, evolve, and continue in our transformation.


"but Naomi, the Bible does NOT teach this!"


says who? think back to the very first time you were given an interpretation of the Bible to live by. can you even remember? we've been indoctrinated since the time we were children. again, did you watch the video above? 


there are only two true emotions-- "fear and love" that all others stem from. and "PERFECT LOVE casts OUT all fear." 1 John 4:18


so don't be afraid to question it. i can assure you that while it may not be as explicit as you're looking for due to the censorship of man, twists of the Truth in translation, and the flat out embellishments, the fact that it was a widely accepted belief and even taught by Jesus, is definitely there. and when we are told by Jesus to have 'faith like a child' to enter the Kingdom of Heaven which He also described as BEING WITHIN, what does that mean? why a child?


because their faith is open to new truth without even having to contemplate the word 'true'. yet, it's not because children don't have an intuition of their own or they're "easily deceived" as we so often love to say to prove that our own theories and theologies are right.


no. children are FAR more perceptive and intuitive than any of us. especially from the ages of infancy to five years before they become 'indoctrinated' into our world. their belief in the unseen and unknown is only tainted as WE taint it for them by telling them what is "real" and what is not.


should it be any surprise to us then that it is most often CHILDREN who remember their past lives? "deception" or "beautiful imagination" we'll say, but THEY know they're not 'imagining' anything.


many children 'see' other beings and have friends that none of us can see. should it be a surprise that countless books have been written about these children who can give chilling accounts of things past and speak of them in the first person as though they're not asking if it happened, they know it did BECAUSE THEY REMEMBER.


you see as we grow up we lose our 'faith like a child' and we become disillusioned by society and what we are TOLD to believe. but children have no such limited faith and this is what Jesus meant.


soon enough we will understand that although this world and our daily lives seem like reality; and as we are in it that's what it 'feels' like, it is not the 'True' Reality. it's all an illusion; a manifestation of our collective thoughts. 

but in this illusion of ongoing lives on earth and through every life-review in between incarnations, new soul contracts, new Spiritual lessons we want to achieve in the next life as we continue to 'trans'form--through it all, we are learning and experiencing the lessons of Life in a 'physical' way that we could not do otherwise.


being human over any other type of being is the best, quickest way for soul growth to happen, so that we CAN end the cycle. so that we CAN live in THE Reality of our truest Selves.


we are becoming as Christians and many others preach 'Christ like' IN our humanity as living souls in a body. as C.S. Lewis said it best "you don't have a soul, you are a soul. you have a body." and did Jesus not say "all these things i do, you will do and greater" John 14:12 and did He not say "is it not written in your law? i said, "you are gods" John 10:34


yes, yes He did say all these things! and that's amazing because so many other gifted people, be it the seers and channelers and Near Death Experiencers, and ancient sages for thousands of years now have all said it too! Psalm 82:6 "I said you are gods. You are 'all' sons of The Most High."

"hu-man" means "god-man". so, let us reason that if Jesus didn't declare himself to be the 'only' Son of God, then why have we turned him into that? he did not come to be turned into a graven image to be worshiped, but to serve as an example of what it meant to lay down our "illusion" of who we think we are and unite with the Christ Consciousness; that portion that we have all been given through our Spiritual Birthright as Sons of God, so that each of us may experience the transcending of the physical world in the same way. and did you know that Gautama Buddha taught the same thing with the 'Middle Way' and that 'portion' or 'buddhavista'/future buddha within. 

did you know that the earliest day Christians did not refer to themselves as "Christians" but as "followers of The Way". Jesus chose to come into that particular incarnation out of pure love and burden for the world. to help raise the Spiritual collective consciousness at a time when it was far more dense than it is today. he taught them that "Way" which was WITHIN where the Kingdom of Heaven resides. 

have you ever wondered about the"lost" years of Jesus? have you ever wondered if he and Gautama Buddha knew one another? they sure did! and Jesus spent much time learning the practice of uniting with his "buddhavista" or "Christ Consciousness" "The Logos" "The Word" within His inner being. yes, so much so that He could perform miracles, walk on water, heal the blind and lame....He was not bound by the physical world in which we live because He knew His truest nature and His Power within as He and His Father/ Our Father-Mother were One. out of LOVE for the One he chose his duty to the world. 


you see, through learning and understanding ourselves as we were meant to, we experience, like Jesus did, the spiritual growth in these human bodies that is needed to transform all together into the created beings we were intended to be all along. we become 'one' with our truest, Highest Self as we become one with The Father and a (lower case) "god" in the Body of God Conscious. nothing is really separate you see? the fact that we believe in our Separation from each other and all Life only reinforces the fact that we are living a collectively-created illusion, because on "the other side" there is no separation. 


only when we collectively wake up to this Truth, will this 'reality' as we know it fade away because we will have no more use for it. The LIGHT of clear consciousness of ALL of us WILL overcome and the earth will be new again.


many have wondered why God doesn't put an end to all the evil and suffering at once, forgetting that WE are all responsible for it. for the bigger picture that we created when we fell away from Him (starting with Satan/Lucifer). so we own the responsibility to turn back to Him and to become Spiritual Activists for humanity in being the miniature creators that we are. 

and because we are BE-ings we are in the ongoing state of Be-ing renewed in our minds and transformed in our physical state of being. again we are souls and have a body. not the other way around. so then, we are merely a group of souls currently having an 'earth experience' for the sake of Spiritual Growth.


and who does God say that He is? "I AM" that "I AM" because that's exactly what/who He is. He just 'IS'. He doesn't have to think about the 'why'  He exists. you see, Jesus was so One with the Father/Mother God of the Whole that He was fully man and fully God in His ability to transcend matter; to materialize and de-materialize. 

and when he said: "I Am the Way, the Truth, and the Life; no man comes to the Father except through me" was Jesus speaking of himself in the sense of 'Jesus the man' or Jesus the soul united with His own 'Christ-Consciousness' or the 'Word' the 'Logos'? 

to reemphasize here; as we each strive to follow The Way, we are in the process of transcending any and all notion of  'separation' that exists within our Consciousness. we are "laying down our cross" so to speak and this illusion (ego) of ourselves we've created as we increase our union with God (within). 

so if we follow the example laid out for us by Jesus, then we should each be able to inevitably say "I AM the Way, the Truth, and the Life"...

He delights in us as we delight in ourselves with our Spiritual purpose in mind. we are to have A BALL in LIFE and to experience the range of emotions that we couldn't understand in a physical sense if we hadn't chosen to be here. i sure love being human for those reasons alone.



and the ability to tune into our Christ Consciousness and know our Selves is critical to overcoming all forces of darkness upon us. the Occult is a part of this illusion we've created and it is a sad, sad story for so many artists wishing they could escape their own 'soul contracts' with the devil (which is not manifested in one being but in all darkness that exists in the illusion). 

to OVERCOME the 'beast inside' through LOVE and celebration  with each other in that Love for one another and for the Creator of every Universe in the Galaxy, including earth (just a speck on that map) The Source of all given-Life. the only 'will' is that we would help point each other back to our Oneness with Him-Her and all of Creation and various lifeforms, using our own free-will. 


that we would wake up to the Truth of who we REALLY are, and the power we have, through our savior, elder Brother, and friend who carries us in His Sacred Heart; Jesus Christ who showed us 'The Way', to overcome those forces of darkness. this Way did not have to do with His own death to "cover salvation for the world" as religion has created, but rather to show us that we EACH work out our salvation by uniting with our own portion of 'The Word' within, the 'spark of Light' so to speak that sustains our soul and grows stronger and brighter as our Consciousness opens and expands. 

as we obtain this level of Spiritual Consciousness, we would only naturally be led into the best choices we could make for ourselves and in effect for others, the One body of God/Christ Consciousness; to minimize our need to come back into the cycle re-birth unless we choose to for the sake of another; to finally have learned and expressed that Understanding to the degree in which our karma are fully balanced by the very least 51% - 49%.



a little tid-bit about myself. as my mother tells me, i was the only one of her five born with the 'veil' over my face. she only ever chalked it up to having been a "temple priestess" in another life, which i don't doubt :) ...but it is not common in humans as Hannah's delivery nurse (a self-proclaimed clairvoyant) told me, very much in horses however. they are born with a 'white film' (veil) over their faces, hence a 'horse's intuition' and they tend to have the most extrasensory perception than most animals on earth.



now, by no means do i claim to be psychic here. i cannot see the future and i couldn't tell you if it was gonna rain tomorrow much more who you're gonna marry. but i have since learned that the true word for the "veil" is being born a "caulbearer" or "messenger of God" and i do strongly believe in my intuition. 

on some level, i think i have always simply 'known' that i chose this lifetime for the sake of being a light worker in this critical period of the world and man's evolution in it. since i was a kid, i've always known that i never quite 'thought' the same as everyone else. i always had an inner 'obsession' (i suppose you could say) for Spiritual Truth.

and about six and half years ago now, when i was living in Austin, TX, i had gone to see a man by the title "Francis the Healer". he was widely known "modern-day Jesus" and worked solely off donations. as a young child he had realized his gift of 'tuning within' and healing things (starting with insects and injured animals). presently he has healed hundreds of individuals and animals for a range of ailments (even cancer) just by laying his hands on them. 

anyhow, my sister and i had both gone to see him in a group healing. upon laying his hands on my head, he singled me out of the group to ask my name before (without hesitation) saying to me "you can do what i do, come back and see me again." 


i never did. i guess i just wasn't at this place in life...where i am now that is. i certainly was not awakened to my Divine Reality at that point either. and to be clear, having learned this about myself has not made me feel any more 'important' than the next. but it has certainly made me feel more responsible to my calling and purpose for having come into this particular lifetime.

i've transcended any need or desire for organized religion as well as any one--end all be all--TRUTH of any particular creed or doctrine. i've realized my Spirituality does not fit in any one box...it never really did. 

i am a Truth-Seeker to the core of my being. i am a light worker...and i know there are thousands of light workers in pockets all around the globe; you may be one yourself and not even have realized it until now. welcome to 'The Great Awakening'. 



on that note, we can begin looking at the headline....


let's start with "aliens" and since i'm kinda feelin' the 'multiple choice' method i started with in the beginning of this blog, i think i'll keep rollin' with it. especially because at this point in time, the discussion surrounding aliens has been around long enough.


a.) absolutely yes, they're real!

b.) maybe possible?

c.) i'm still laughing at you Naomi.


but if you're a history channel geek like me, then you know that for quite some time now they've featured segments titled "Ancient Aliens" enlightening the viewers to a multitude of archaeological evidence (e.g bones, and Egyptian pyramids themselves) and ancient writings that depict extremely  advanced civilizations dating back thousands of years ago.



many of their technologies were so advanced that we are still trying to dissect them today. not to mention that every ancient culture has depictions of 'Ancient Astronauts'. so who were they?


as a human race collectively we've only just begun to scratch the surface of Quantum Physics and parallel realms in understanding more about space, the Universe, the planet Earth in respect to it's location within the solar system and the changes taking place by the nanosecond, including the possibilities of our own brains.



as many quantum physicists, scientists, and 'prophets' are saying, there seem to be a fulfillment of not only Biblical Prophesy but predictions by many different ancient civilizations included, taking place even as these words are written.



the Mayans were one of them. it is still a mystery as to how they had such advanced knowledge to create a calendar system more precise than ours today with all our hi-tech instruments and gadgets. did they have the help of E.T.s?



and furthermore not to mention the vast number of abductee experiences. "P.R's" is just (but) one of them. and he details a description of the immorality, depraved, evil atrocities they commit, even disguised as human or through mind-control of humans. of course, just as there are 'evil' and 'benevolent' humans same goes for other lifeforms. other stories have made headline news. in most cases, these abductions were a part of the 'soul-contract' of all individuals involved, however it is not always the case. 

then we have the countless number of weird shapes and UFO sitings witnessed by many thousands of people, ancient drawings depicting the same thing, and we've seen people like Phil Schneider who've worked for the CIA turn up missing or dead after having come out with the Truth about what's going on in these underground bunkers and encounters with evil reptilians who "can transform themselves into humans."


we want to say it's all one big hoax and most of the time that's exactly what we decide to conclude. but what if it's not a hoax? 

as the prince of darkness in this world, it is part of the 'collective-Devil's' plan. that we'd write all these things off as "silly sci-if" and continue being the sheeple that we've been. but this is not GOD'S plan for us. again, the LIGHT WILL OVERCOME ALL DARKNESS. and He promised us that all things would be brought to light in the end. that's the BEST news! 

WE WIN! LOVE wins!!! and God/our unified Highest Collective Consciousness is calling us now to wake up and pay attention to all those things being fulfilled and to realize that WE have the power to change the course of any potential events to come. which is why we are not to fear. we own all the power within. 

fear and negative energy are the only two things that sustain darkness and keep us from breaking through to this Awareness. fear enslaves and we were not made to fear anything or anyone. fear and love to not operate together. 

we are only to be aware of all this, so that we would find the ability to expand our consciousness into the grander picture of Life and our purposes for being here. 

and if He is in us (in His Kingdom) then he feels things as we feel them. He learns of our choices as we make them and He is emotionally affected by our choices, nonetheless allows our free-will to continue. His greatest sorrow is our is our greatest sorrow. His greatest Joy is ours. His greatest anger against injustice and evil is also ours...because we make up God together. 

i'll never forget going through my miscarriage and feeling comforted by His Voice after a bout' of anger. 

"My Heart mourns with you" ....

 to realize that we have the power to change 'this' "reality" we have created for ourselves, we NEED to wake up to it. so that we are ready and willing for anything to take place. so that we are owning up to our end of the bargain...how are you supposed to know your purpose if you can't remember signing the contract? trust that your highest consciousness/ your Higher Self is nudging you and guiding you, and with more ease as you make a conscious and willful choice to listen and heed the advice.    

more importantly that we realize the ability within ourselves to create a new world. and that starts in our 'own' individual worlds. it starts as we commit ourselves to manifesting our intentions towards our Spiritual Growth. we commit ourselves to an 'attitude of gratitude' everyday diligently until it becomes so much a part of us that its who we are.


we commit ourselves in genuine, self-less love and service for each other. and we envision (every day) in our minds what the world would look like if we were all stripped of our egos. we envision what the world would look like, if we all cared just a little bit more about each other than ourselves. what the world would look like if we could cohabitate with every different type of being in the universe operating on that same loving frequency. 


love overcomes all fear when we understand that we were not made to fear. even when it comes to the topic of 'aliens' (good or evil ones) and when we've reached that level in our Spiritual Awareness. when we are FREE of fear, we are FREE at last. and that is what we were made to be. 


which is exactly my purpose in writing this blog.


so all that said. if it's possible that just like 'Angels are among us as humans (as hundreds of thousands of people on this planet believe and have experienced) coming to our rescue in times of need representing their head honcho (God), then we should assume the likeliness that demons are also among us as humans representing their head honcho (the first fallen angel) Lucifer (light bearer as he once was). 



and really, if all this seems too "far fetched" to the Bible-believing Christian, what do we know about Angels and Demons? or how about the "Nephilm"spoken of in Genesis? the Flood should have destroyed all of them as they were the result of depravity between humans and fallen angels. yet they weren't entirely wiped out. and they carried the bloodline of Satan's "seed" within their veins. 


is it possible that  'E.T' and "Angel" or E.T. and "Demon" are one in the same thing?


"HOW is that even possible!? reptilian aliens disguised as human!? riiiiiight...."

well, i'm glad you asked. maybe this 'techie' can help me out with his video breakdown of the mind-control and shapeshifting ability. maybe a hoax? maybe not? and maybe not all reptilians are 'bad' just the same as not all humans are 'bad'?

we've also learned of those benevolent E.T.s 'on the side of humans' who recently intervened in Earth affairs to save us from destruction in the early sixties when Gaia (the Soul of Earth) cried out for help. the are  'The Arcturians' among others of  'The Galactic Federation of Light.


take, for example the voice of  'Gramaha Asta Galactic Commander'... sounds like a great movie character right!? :)


 "this "voice from space" blacked out the BBC's Southern TV station for 5 1/2 minutes at 5:12 PM on November 26, 1977 while the message was delivered slowly and deliberately in a calm authoritative tone." of course, like anything and everything that had to do with E.T "discovery" and "communication" it was determined to be another big fat HOAX, but it is yet to be truly explained has to HOW the hoax was even possible to pull off. moreover, no one has ever been caught or come forward to claim responsibility for it.



nonetheless, what is 'the message' being told by this 'voice'? listen to it and realize that there is wisdom and TRUTH in the message (EVEN) if you're still laughing and calling it a hoax.



and what have Prophets and Channelers been saying about this GalacticFederation? they were known of before the incident with the BBC broadcast.


"ok Naomi...you're on a real good one now"...



i know right!? it's so Sci-Fi!! who would've thought that we are only able to 'imagine' space aliens and create them in movies like Star Trek. there's no way it's actually real!



"you've lost it. one too many turns down crazy town."


but have i really? again, did you watch the first video in this blog?  have you at least skimmed the links (in text) after that?



we know more about the Brain today and about consciousness than ever before. we can see through the lies and agenda. for those of us paying attention, we've seen more scandal than ever brought to light  (i.e.) monsanto, chemtrails, illuminati mind control. etc.



our world is changing for the good... dark forces are trying to stay in power and forces of light are overcoming them as our Collective God Consciousness raises in frequency. we are Spiritually evolving and finally beginning to understand who we really are. and who/what we really are is Light. 

darkness cannot exist without Light as it is simply the 'absence of' light. and so the goal for the future of humanity, in undoing everything we've done, is to re-write 'darkness' to a work of fiction. to be entirely re-unified with our own God Given Light. 

indeed, we are on that path as more and more individuals break free from the illusions and restrictions placed on God through culture, man-made religion, and our own theories about him. 

as more and more awaken to their own Christ Mind and Consciousness (The Word/ Logos), more and more human souls will ascend and the Light will overcome any and every dark force. 


to operate on and in an upright and holy, righteous Love for ourselves, each other, and for Earth with a contentment in knowing that the real "END" of the cycle as we know it, will only be the 'beginning' to this Great Awakening. 'remembering' that this was ALL only an illusion and temporary "period of programming" to begin with. 

when we operate in 'Selfless Love and Truth', we operate in the Christ Consciousness. and this is LIFE, which is the opposite of death.



but as Christians we cannot place a false hope in what we've been told is the correct interpretation of "THE END TIMES". even as i've written this entire blog for the sake of sharing the Truth, i beg you to ponder it and pray over it for yourself. let the Holy Spirit within you/ your own intuition be the judge of all that is written here. 

that said, Pre-tribulation "rapture" like all those Left Behind Series (and the remade movie starring Nicholas Cage) is not sound doctrine and never appeared in teaching until after 1830. there is not going to be 'two' second comings of Jesus Christ. though many are preparing the way for His coming right now. if we sit around waiting to 'disappear', in disbelief that God would 'actually' allow us Christians to experience tribulation, then we choose to ignore the Truth that stares us right in the face. 



not to mention, when at any point on the pages of the Bible did God ever remove his people from danger all together? he did not. but he did PROTECT them from being totally destroyed. He was WITH them in the same way He is still Here and WITH us.




the KINGDOM that is WITHIN us is here because WE are here and we are 'gods' in GOD Consciousness . we are EARTH beings. we are here and will continue to be here as those "righteous" who will inherit the earth and dwell on it forever in our 'transformed' bodies and Minds as we remain faithful to Him. Psalm 37:29. His Kingdom WILL come to earth, and it's already happening!


have you ever heard the saying "you don't go to Heaven, you grow to Heaven"? we are being transformed every day as we seek the Truth and Light of God and His will for us. "That no man shall perish" we are the ones preparing the path for Jesus Second Coming when He will appear to the world in the same body and appearance he died in--the body He had in Galilee. with those beautiful scars on his nailed-pierced hands and feet.


there will come a day, when this illusion of programming we believed was 'real' will seem like a distant memory. why? because we ARE made in His image--Spirit first. we are eternal beings and life as 'hu-man' is but one experience in our Souls' Journey back to Him. 


as many channelers have seen, Mother Nature's Soul (Gaia) is already going through a cleansing period right now, and every natural disaster including those Biblical prophecies of "punishment" and destruction on Earth has been fulfilled and continues to be fulfilled as She releases the negative energy she must in order to be cleansed...



i'll leave you with a channeler whom i've enjoyed listening to since (serendipitously) meeting her daughter and granddaughter in our community.



may you be blessed in Love and in the Awakening of Your Highest Self evermore. here she is, Aingel Rose


and for more reading material (if you didn't get enough in this novel of a blog) check out 'Matthew's Messages'.



more on Edgar Cayce...

"Then, today, we are to answer within our individual consciousness, "Am I my brother's keeper?"  Not "What does the world owe me?"  but "What contribution can I, as an individual soul seeking God, seeking to know His face, make that may hasten the day of the Lord?"


"What is needed most in the earth today? That the sons of men be warned that the day of the Lord is near at hand, and that those who have been and are unfaithful must meet themselves in those things which come to pass in their experience."


"19. (Q) Please explain the words of the Master as recorded in the 21st chapter of Luke, "Many shall come in my name, saying I am Christ."


(A) As has been given, many have arisen; for as He gave in the same connection, there were many false prophets, even those that would lead the very elect away. There be those who, finding something of the power that is in the material activities of those that would walk in the light, turn same into their own selfish purposes; hence become false prophets, false Christs, and lead many astray. Let's remember, there has been given the manner, the way to determine as to whether such a prophet is of the Spirit of God or not. They that deny the call of the prophets of old, or the burdens of the world upon the Son or His death, His resurrection, are not of the spirit; for "As ye have SEEN Him go, so SHALL He come." As He overcame the world through the birth as one born in due season, through those varied periods when necessity and the DEMAND of the Sons of God brought forth those leaders in their proper places, so He is that one that is given power over death, hell and the grave, and in Him is the power made manifest in the consciousness of Him and His power in the earth; hence we may see how the consciousness of His presence may be misconstrued, when turned to selfish motives. Know that even as the powers of evil are loosed for the correcting of many, so are the glories of Him made manifest in the hearts and lives of many."